Big Tiny Steps

(At ~37.5% of full dosage, and 22 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternative)

Yesterday was a bit of a “sick day”, with one of my kiddos seriously under the weather, and myself exhausted after just 3 hours of sleep.

I took a nap later in the afternoon, but also took that second dose of Bright Mind, which really lives up to how it’s advertised. I had that expanded energy and mental acuity, but no crash, no jitters. It really is miraculous in a way.

As I’ve been saying throughout this process, I am not sue how much, if any, of the exhaustion I’ve been experiencing is related to reducing the Adderall and how much is just my usual lack of sleep and high-stress circumstances.

But I do highly suspect that at least some of the exhaustion is “Freedom Exhaustion” – meaning it stems from my journey towards freedom from Adderall. And that’s ok, either way.

The exhaustion has been a great opportunity to be fair to myself as another form of loving myself. It’s an opportunity to slow down and just be, without the laundry list of “shoulds”.

This is a reset, where the energy that once came from Adderall now NEEDS to be replaced, and replaced with something LIFE-GIVING, not just a chemical that does nothing but enslave me.

So that path beyond is to “follow my bliss”, or at the very least, accept myself and love myself and ride off of that somewhat new energy. It’s all about finding a different energy source, changing from “disposable to rechargeable batteries”, if you will.

And if the batteries are running slow, I GET to, recharge them in a way that is ultimately truly energizing. And this path is allowing me to find those new “batteries”.

Some of these “batteries” include:

• playing music
• being present for my family
• doing interesting work at my day job
• watching inspiring or entertaining content
• tuning out the draining sources of energy (namely the news)
• being authentic, living and speaking my truth and watching the chips land as they may
• connecting with other humans on the same path towards freedom from the imagined confines of the 3D world

And there are countless other powerful and joyful “batteries” that this process is so beautifully pointing me towards, despite the pain, despite the challenges.

So the theme today, or at least one of the themes for me today (along with authenticity and letting chps fall where they may), is exploring and enjoying new “batteries”.