Big Tiny Steps

(At 12.5% of full dosage, and 37 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternative, but this is probably the last time I include Bright Mind in this update at the top of each entry, not super-relevant)

I don’t have a lot of time this morning, but here’s the…

Quick Update

• Ran out of Bright Mind, and I won’t have any until Wednesday, so that sucks as it’s really been helping me. Experiencing my “Addict Mind” thinking about where else I could get something similar, since these types of supplements are generally only available online, with at least a 1 week door-to-door ship time.
• Due to the dire financial situation my family finds itself in, I am being forced to explore other options for bringing in income. One of which is expanding my side-hustle to include courses created by, me. Up until now, I’ve been acting in the role of a “publisher”, putting out music courses by other creators. But this time, I am going to attempt to do my own course. The goal is to make it short and simple for beginners. Of course, there is the usual impostor syndrome, but I don’t have too much time to wallow in that. I just need this thing done and out there so that we can start balancing our outrageous outflow of money with some inflow.
• At first, I was thinking that this is horrible timing, because that Bright Mind would really come in handy right for taking on such a daunting project while still experiencing so much exhastion. But in working heads-down on my course this morning, I saw that the exhaustion and slight depression I’ve been feeling, again, I don’t believe only because of getting off of Adderall , was out of the picture completely.
• All of that said, I may actually need to pivot away from the course for a few days to see if I can apply to take some money out of my the 401k I am getting through my employer, not to mention working on an arrangement with our mortgage lender to get some temporary relief.
• I also feel a bit better because I allowed myself to sleep in an extra hour.
• So, in conclusion, getting off of Adderall is revealing to me that my new way of life MUST include some great things that I may have not discoverd otherwise:
  • Instead of relying on a chemical to get me pumped for the day ahead, I must be doing actual work that’s inspiring and exciting to me
  • Getting some f**king sleep!