Big Tiny Steps

(At 12.5% of full dosage, and 36 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternative)

Last night was pretty rough, as I had a very hard time with one of my kids, seeing them suffer. To unwind, I stayed up really late and ate a bunch of junk food. Not the healthiest choice, but shit, I deserved some enjoyment after what I went through.

I have no doubt that had I had my old friend, Adderall on board at full dosage, I would be feeling better this morning. But again, I am more than happy to pay the price of some “Freedom Blues”, as ithose

What my reduction in Adderall allowed me to experience

I just finished day 2 of Ken Honda’s course on Mindvalley, Money EQ, and holy shit, has it uncovered a major source of pain in my life.

This discovery over the past two days has been so profound, to the point where I actually had a few tears this morning.

I am seeing that my relationship with money is completely toxic, one of hate and fear and inferiority. I don’t feel worthy of money. I feel as though the people who have money are all superior to me in terms of intelligence, work ethic, and luck.

So it would stand to reason that if this whole relationship between energy and emotions and the unfoldment of our 3D life is a real thing, which so many people who are successful in the realm of financial abundance insist that it is, that my current financial situation makes complete sense.

And so if I woke up with that Adderall boost this morning, would this revelation be hitting me as hard.

That’s almost a definite no.

So today, my mission is to notice my emotions when I spend money today, and even begin having a “dialogue” with my money.

Looking forward to this next chapter, as I approach the final days of Adderall in my life…