Big Tiny Steps

(At 12.5% of full dosage, and 35 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternative)

So, ok, wow…

Shit’s getting real this morning. Yesterday was marked by a very high level of exhaustion and a significant headache the second half of the day. I hesitate to label the exhaustion and accompanying headaches as withdrawal symptoms because I know that I got very poor sleep the night before (by choice, thanks to my inability to not finish the season 2 finale of Severance).

I was also skipping Bright Mind yesterday, so that probably didn’t help matters, but it was important to skip it none the less to avoid building up more toleance than I’ve already built up.

It was not lost on me that I was just .5 of an Adderall tablet away from escaping the exhaustion and headache, but you know what?

Happy to Pay the Price

It was a price I was HAPPY to pay. If this is the price of a new level of freedom, then it really is a bargain.

I would do well to carry this principle into the way I spend money, where I see that the money I spend is going towards some very good purposes, such as a roof over my family’s heads, electricity, heat, water, clothing, food, etc.

Stepping Out With Courage

Given how I felt yesterday, and this morning, although the headache was thankfully gone, I seriously considered pushing today’s reduction to tomorrow, but decided to give it a little while and see how I felt.

As of now, I feel ok. There’s a bit of sadness due to the usual drama of my life and none of that morning, “kick in the pants”, but the “Freedom Bluies” are a small price that I am happy to pay!