Big Tiny Steps

(At 25% of full dosage, and 34 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternative but taking today off of it to prevent building of tolerance)

My little one woke up early this morning, so I retreated downstairs for some peace and quiet, but things are ok, especially in light of the fact that today is a Bright Mind “skip day”, which is a good thing for a number of reasons:

1. It is good to see that I have not developed a dependency on this stuff (which, is designed to, and succesful at, not being habit forming).
2. I feel as though I am finally developing too much tolerance to it. Yesterday I took a second dose in the afternoon, which has become a bit of a habit as of late, and didn’t really feel much.
3. It’s good to see how much energy I actually have this morning considering that I feel into my addiction of staying up too late (this time the season 2 finale of Severance is the culprit I’ll blame)

Accepting the Money

So the disagreement with the family member who has been helping us out with financial assistance for our medical bills agreed to my request that if he doesn’t want to help financialy, to just say “No” because I can deal with that. What I can’t deal with is the angry and judgemental response, treating me like a reckless spender pampering myself on someone else’s dime.

So I think it’s OK to accept some help, and in this case, boy, did it relieve some stress.

I started taking Mindvalley’s course, Money EQ with Ken Honda last night, and am enjoying the material so far. I believe the course will also help me arrive at my next direction in life as far as living my purpose and feeling engaged and not needing Adderall to get me going in the morning.

I have some ideas, but helping others, especially dads in my situation seems like an interesting avenue. I’d like to complete my “success story” beyond just the Adderall, however, as I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I am still thinking about changing the name of this blog to something that encompasses using the “weaning” approach to make small but meaningful changes on a consistent basis in order to get the biggest and most permanent results.

For the two or so people who actually read this blog, I’ll almost certainly post the new blog name if I change it, since all of the links on this site will be dead.

In fact, perhaps I should make this change sooner rather than later, and give Google a chance reevaluate the site for what I’d eventually like it to be.

That’s it for now, onwards!