Big Tiny Steps

(At 25% of full dosage, and 29 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternative)

The Update….

So yesterday, I got some bad financial news. As has been my pattern, I felt hopeless, sad, fearful, and angry.

And thanks to all of those podcasts and books I’ve devoured over the years, teaching me “enough metaphysics to be dangerous”, my anxiety and hopeless gets amped up by this message of “you are feeling bad, so brace yourself for a shit sandwich of new circumstances that you cannot help but attract as per the energy you are feeling.”

But then, after taking a moment to run a stream of consciousness in my mind, asking for higher guidance, the following came to me….

Whether or not it’s true that I have set myself back mentally and in terms of the flow of money into my life, one thing is true…

The faster I can get back on track mentally and do things such as make realistic affirmations that do not trigger butterflies in my stomach borne of insincerity and resistance, the better. There is no benefit to inflicting upon myself a period of self-punishment or spiraling.

Why not, starting immediately, start telling myself something that I can believe, such as, “I can do BETTER with my mind today” (as opposed to something that will only come back to me with resistance and anxiety such as “I am rich and wealthy beyond belief”)

So I started on this mental track, and immediately afterwards, I received an unexpected gift of $180 from a family member.

Is $180 anywhere near what it will take to solve my financial issues?

No.

But it IS something that will HELP, and for that, I choose to be greatful and recognize that it represents an INFLOW to counterbalance my abundant OUTLFLOW.

So today, I will affirm what’s real for me and hopefully start stair-stepping mentally back to a place of more drastically abundant thoughts and feelings.

As for the Adderall Stuff…

Otherwise, I took a good nap yesterday, and will look forward to my Bright Mind skip day tomorrow, when it’s the weekend and I can afford to recharge my batteries with a nap rather than something I ingest.

So far, so good this morning. Some anxiety, but will continue to energize the positive (plus, mornings are often the hardest, despite this much cherished time of peace and quiet, for which I am ALSO grateful).