Big Tiny Steps

(At ~37.5% of full dosage, and 21 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternative)

So my kiddo woke up at 5am and I wasn’t able to get him back to sleep. He is awake now, but miraculously keeping himself busy and letting me enjoy my morning quiet time, so that’s really cool.

Otherwise, yesterday was surprisingly good given that it was my first day at 1.5 tablets (down from 4 tablets 31 days ago).

I am gaining new clarity in my life and finding more joy. There are still big challenges, but I do have hope. I also need to see where I am getting excited about things going wrong, but not necessarily for “advanced spiritual reasons.”

You see, when certain things in my physical world go wrong, it can give me license to make the big changes I wanted to make. Because those big changes may involve letting others down, but when something legitimately bad happens, I have an “excuse” to make those changes, rather than having to exercise the courage and maturity to make those changes because they are what my most authentic self truly desires and needs.

Anyhow, I don’t need to go off on that tangent here, but suffice it to say that things are good so far.

I am tired and a bit anxious, but that’s to be expected when I’ve slept so little and my son is awake so early.

So things are pretty uneventful otherwise, certainly in terms of the weaning process. Still no desire to return to the bondage of Adderall, although I will probaly refill my prescription to ensure that I have enough for my gentle landing, especially as the chaos of these tariffs kick in and I risk not being able to get any and having to do a mini-cold turkey. But I will be fine, as I have plenty now and will not need to do my usual panicking on the last day of my supply.

Onwards!