Big Tiny Steps

(At ~50% of full dosage, and 19 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternative)

I woke up this moring feeling more exhausted than usual, which is interesting because yesterday I found myself with more energy than I’ve had in some time. It was the first day in the last couple of weeks, at least, that I can remember as not needing to lie down at some point in the afternoon and/or evening.

Again, my main mission with this weaning schedule is to make getting off of Adderall feel effortless, or at least as effortless as possible, so pushing myself to drop in dosage on a morning that’s a) less than a full week since my previous drop and b) a possible risk of experiencing “freedom exhaustion” and overall unpleasantness, is just not worth it.

The great news is that it was actually very hard for me to embody the self-love of delaying my redcution by a day. This shows me that a) I am getting better and better at practicing self-care, and b) that I am extremely resolved to get this junk out of my life, since this delay felt like the delay of something fun and enjoyable. Sort of like delaying a planned fun day trip that I’ve been looking forward to.

So I know for a fact that I am not “playing games” or looking for an easy out. In fact, this was the more challenging action. So I am feeling good about it, and have decided to make Wednesdays my reduction day for the week. Before it was Tuesday, but last week I needed an extra day as well.

Regardless, I am way ahead of the schedule I initially planned out where I would temporarily move UP every two weeks because I was so scared of withdrawals, but alas, that has proved unnecessary, thank God. Although it would have been fine if I had to wait the extra 3 months or so.

The goal here isn’t to move fast, but rather, to move permanently.

The Effect of Skipping a Day of Bright Mind

Another reason I may have had some extra energy is that I skipped Bright Mind the day before so as to prevent building a tolerance, so perhaps that kicked in a bit harder than usual yesterday. I am becoming a believer….

Following Your Bliss – The Ultimate Cure for Adderall Addiction

The reason I believe I had that energy that elminated the need for a nap was that I embarked on a new, fun, and exciting project, which was converting my abandoned YouTube channel into a parody channel with a ridiculous video.

Playing nusic has the same exact effect of replacing that energy boost and mood-stablization that I previously relied on Adderall to ensure.

So if you’re struggling with Adderall addiction, I’d invite you to find an activity that allows you to focus effortlessly and most importantly, have FUN. There is no stronger drug or supplement.