Big Tiny Steps

(At ~63% of full dosage, and 6 days after starting the Bright Mind natural Adderall alternativee. However, skipping Bright Mind today because you’re supposed to take a day off after 5 consecutive days, will resume tomorrow.)

I’ll try and keep it short today, but yesterday, after waking up at around 4am with a “Freedom Headache” and making it go away with my newly-reduced Adderall dosage coupled with my regular 5-hour energy and Bright Mind drink, I found myself experiencing energy, but also a healthy dose of anxiety and sadness.

These are emtions that I have certainly experienced while at my full Adderall dosage, so I can’t be sure that these are related to my reduction in dosage, although those types of feelings are certainly included in the list of possible emotions both during and after the Adderall withdrawal process.

However, those feelings, along with the exhaustion that was building up as the day went on evaporated once I gave myself the gift of a 25-minute nap.

So this will be something to keep in mind as a remedy, and possibly for today since I am feeling a bit less “buzzy” than I often am in the mornings after taking Adderall.

I am also taking today off of Bright Mind as per their instructions to take a 1-day break after 5 consecutive days, so I will not have that “wind in my sails.” However, I DO have the wind of FREEDOM in my sails, which is by far the most powerful wind.

I am also adding wind in my sails vis a vis my decision, as of yesterday, to dramatically lower my intake of “recreational sugars” such as candy bars and some of the sweet treats we have around the house for our kiddos.

While I am a bit reticent to add new projects of discipline to the formidable project of discipline I am involved in right now, I am banking on the fact that the benefits in terms of energy and self-esteem/self-love will drown out any “discipline fatigue” I might experience as a result, we’ll see.