Big Tiny Steps

So as mentoned in yesteday’s post, I updated the post adding that I started on Bright Mind, and the beginnings of a headache as well as exhaustion seem to subside.

But I do still want to see a pattern.

This morning, I took it, and still feel very tired, but it is also because I don’t believe I am getting enough sleep. And going to be on time is still my biggest active addiction. It’s just that my day-to-day life is so packed, and with so little of my precious quiet, alone time, that I just binge on that when it’s available, which is largely at night, late.

But I will still say, for my money, there is stimulant and instant mood lifter like playing my piano. Piano is not my first instrument, and aside from some lessons I took, and took not seriously, when I was a kid, I don’t have any real training on the instrument. But I just use it as a “therapy machine”, playing along with music I am passionate about. Mostly Pat Metheny Group stuff, but also some Yacht Rock and any music that’s got lots of pretty chords.

This puts me on a natural high, but not just a high that goes away once I step away from the activity, but a natural high that STICKS WITH ME, oftentimes leading to the rest of my day being literally 10 times better than it would be otherwise.

It has the power to snap me out of a depression when things in my life are going legitimately shitty.

So, once again, I will recommend, for anyone dealing with the “Freedom Blues” of quitting Adderall or making any other challenging life change, if you can find some sort of activity that brings you JOY and EXCITEMENT, please capitalize on that.

Fill your life with as much joy as possible. It’s really the best use of time here while we are incarnated on earth.

Honestly, when we’re dead and gone, is it going to matter how hard we worked or how much stuff we accumulated? When is the last time you saw a U-Haul hitched to a hearst? If we are on our death bed, are we going to say, “If only I spent more time working….”?

Of course not. We will almost certainly look back at our life and evaluate it in terms of how much love and joy we experienced. So joy should be the PRIORITY in our lives. The best possible use of time. Not our superficial ambitions.

Make JOY and a commitment to being FULLY ALIVE as your primary ambition.

At least that’s what I plan on doing, starting…RIGHT NOW….