Big Tiny Steps

I am a bit short on time this morning, but I wanted to just note that to my surprise, there has been absolutely no trace of withdrawals or discomfort, and in fact, I feel MORE energized.

I did read just now at quittingadderall.com that with their “step down” method, you are not supposed to go back up in dosage.

And as it happens, I believe that my original plan is going to end up changing in that I will not need to step back up. But this is because I feel very committed and ready to quit, and if I were hypothetically to go back up in order to deal with the extreme demands of my day to day life, I don’t feel that it would cause me to just bail on the entire project.

Perhaps for someone else, having to step back up one increment is going to spell the beginning of the end. This process is just so personal, and you can’t take anyone’s word as the gospel truth.

I do think you need to be ready, and not afraid to “fail”. You can always restart again.

Another thing as well is that although I have not been able to find the time to attend 12-step meetings, my years in the program have enabled me to live by the principles I’ve learned form the 12-step process. Even though in most cases, it is probably dangerous to go it alone, my experience, so far, has been that my dedication to face my own “shadows”, practice rigorous self-honesty, and maintain contact with Higher Powers have enabled me to move forward in this journey with success.

So I would say, if you are new to, or struggling with, the process of breaking free from an addiction, be it Adderall addiction or any other type of addiction for that matter, then I would highly recommend exploring a 12-step program, since my experience is that if you APPLY the principles of the program, you WILL succeed.

So far the exprience of weaning has been 100% positive, and my resolve to “cross the finish line” (or the “flush line”, as in flushing my remaining pills down the toilet) has only increased.

Onwards!