Big Tiny Steps

As you can surmise from the title of this post, last night was a bit tougher, but this morning, I am feeling pretty good, despite being woken up abruptly for “Daddy Duty” and not getting my precious morning meditation and general quiet time that I would normally use for writing here.

But yeah, as for last night, it was basically the same kind of thing I’ve experienced from time to time while on my full dosage, so this wasn’t like the official beginnings of withdrawal due to my current weaning process.

Basically, over the course of a fairly stressful and overall trying day, the storehouse of Adderall in my system seemed to get depleted, and so I got a small dose of withdrawals in the form of a very high level of exhaustion and an all-day mile headache.

But you know what? I welcomed it.

I considered these symptoms a “Freedom Headache” and “Freedom Exhaustion“, as mentioned in my first post on this website. As of yet, my resolve remains strong.

I do notice that in describing the symptoms from last night, I feel them subtly reappearing before disappearing. But I may want to reconsider changing my writing routine from morning to evening so that if I psychosomatically induce withdraal symptoms, at least it’s at the end of the day and I am not torpedoing the day ahead.

But right now at 10:15am, so far so good.

Today my Bright Mind “ADHD Alternative” drink arrives, so I will probably give that a try in the coming days, or potentially wait a little longer until my dosage is lower so that I do not get accustomed to a “double whammy” effect of still some Adderall plus this natural stimulant drink. The goal here is to learn to live a way where I don’t need to feel a boost of artificial energy in the morning. However, if Bright Mind is all they’re cracking it up to be, then I think it could be a great long-ish term alternative due to that fact that it’s natural and (allegedly) non-habit forming.

Onwards!