Big Tiny Steps

OK, so I’ve finally begun the process. About 45 mins ago I took my first reduced dosage in years. So it was 17.5 mg instead of 20 mg, woo hoo!

I feel pretty sleepy right now, but I am sure that much of that is coming from poor sleep due to my current life cisrcumstances as well as my budding practice of disciplining myself to avoid late night social media scrolling.

I get that some serious placebo effects may be on the way.

Reconsidering the Weaning Schedule

I am wondering though….with the current V1 weaning schedule set to last 5 months, perhaps there is a danger there, giving that while lessening any withdrawal symptoms, it also forces me to exert discipline for a very long period of time.

Those 5 months MAY offer me too many “offramps” or opportunities to reconsider this whole mission.

In fact, already I am having doubts about whether or not I am setting myself up for failure given how rough my life has been, even over the last few days.

But it will also be an impetus to find new endeavors to help keep me busy, and to focus on freedom. To live as though those things currently holding me back did not exist, or to at least do so as much as possible.

Freedom is the theme here.

But anyhow, I may very well decide in the next few days to compress the weaning schedule in half, or at least compress the period of titrating down by 5 mg from 2 weeks to just 1 week, but then spend a whole week at the dosage 2.5 mg above the point where I just reduced to.

Holy crap, that’s confusing. So to give the pattern, an example would be…

1. Reduce by 2.5 mg and stay at that dosage for 4 days (17.5 mg)
2. Reduce by another 2.5 mg and stay at that dosage for 3 days (15 mg)
3. Increase back up by 2.5 mg, and stay at that dosage for 7 days (17.5 mg)
4. (repeat steps 1-3)

So 4 days down, 3 days down, 7 days up.

I don’t know, I suppose I’ll see how I feel in 4 days and if I am feeling OK, go down by that 2.5 mg 3 days earlier and see how that works.

If I also couple that reduction with some exciting activities, then it could make for a nice “crossfade”.

And there’s also my Bright Mind drink that should be coming soon, so we’ll see if that’s really all it’s cracked up to be in terms of giving the sort of boost that could compensate for the reduction in Adderall.

So that’s it for now. Like I said, so far so good, cautiously optimistic. Will work on reducing that cautiously part….